I once set a goal for myself that required years of commitment and discipline and hard work. There were times when I felt thoroughly defeated, beat up by the process, and denuded of all inspiration and will.
But somewhere within me there was a shred of willingness and determination. And each time I came to that hard, hard place, I kept going and amazing things happened at the very lowest moments, when I at once gave up, acknowledged that this could be the end, and told myself just take it to the wall. I would not stop.
I'm sure this is what marathon and extreme athletes experience in their drive to the finish line. Whether your finish line is one drawn on the earth or 6 figures or spiritual enlightenment or whatever, there comes a time, many times sometimes, when you will need to tell yourself to just keep going.
Keep on keeping on. Take the next step. Do the next right thing. Just do it.
Ram Tirtha was a monk from India who came to the United States in the early 20th Century. He was a poet-saint, passionate about his relationship with God, and once wrote to his students and followers that when their spiritual journey became so intense and painful that they couldn't go on, that they needed to "drink your own blood and keep going".
That's extreme! But, on days when it seems like exercise is the last thing I want to do because I'm in a funk, or I'm feeling lazy, or I have a gazillion things going on, I often remind myself to just keep going. (The drinking your own blood part thankfully doesn't come often and is more reserved for big, life goals where it seems like everything is on the line. I'm speaking for myself. I'm sure that professional athletes have experienced those moments, anyone who is committed to something big knows what I'm talking about. It's really a great moment, when it comes to that....)
We all have days, I think, when we wonder, what for? I'm inspired by teams that are down at halftime, or in the last minutes of the game and winning seems impossible, but play with everything they've got to the very end. Sometimes they win the game! It's as if their very effort creates miracles, or, if you don't believe in miracles, delightful events that seem to happen spontaneously and out of the blue.
To me, the sports-is-life analogy holds true and to continue to exercise regularly, to do the things that keep me healthy and in the game of my life, is sometimes a huge challenge that asks me to reach deep within myself and give it my best shot. It might not be very good --- it might be a very short walk or five minutes of yoga or just lifting weights for a few minutes. But it's something.
Today, just keep going.